Acceptance

When I first found out I have bipolar, I was very reluctant to the fact that I have it. But with time I told myself that nobody is perfect and this is one the few things that chose to come into my life, so I might as well accept it and live with it. It was very hard to accept as growing up in a very competitive society, I thought to myself what is life? With something that just decided to bump into my life all of a sudden. But all it takes is to accept, and once you do that you will realize nothing can beat your confidence and the battle that you’re fighting, Victory showers you, as all it takes is acceptance.

Experience

This I believe is the most intriguing part of this article. My experience from when I got to know I have bipolar is like a person clinging onto a train. The experience won’t leave you, as it leaves a mark behind your life. As I embarked onto my “new” life, I understood most of things that people around me, were trying to make me aware of. I was so depressed for months before I accepted that I had to live with bipolar, but then things changed I would walk around into gatherings and people would ask me questions like why am I so quiet? Why am I not as entertaining as I used to be, before? I would die to give them the answer as to how I was feeling those times and why I was appearing to be that quiet introvert. But things just took a twist in my life and I moved on from being that depressed person, as I told myself one morning, “you know what,I am going to spend my day well today and everyday, from now on.” Those were the literal words that I told myself and I remember that day because, it is the day that I chose to be me, I chose to do what I wanted to do in the right way without anybody criticizing me for who I was, and without anybody telling me what to do in my life. I took a stand and said this is my life, and only I have the right to do what I think is right in my life. People would show faces to me and I would just look forward and say to myself,” all of you will regret one day how you underestimated me” but not everyone was a critic, there were some who made a great impact on my life that I shall never forget them.

Good things also happen

I believe good things also happen to you, when you go through a mental disorder, not everything you witness, is a bad thing. Good things like people mistake you for being humble when you are actually struggling to tell them you are humble but not all the time. You also gain a good reputation as you are on the low so people get to know you as ‘that quiet girl’ but in the end you become who you are.

All in all I believe you learn new things throughout the test and have trust in yourself that you can do it. You can be a better person even you have it for a lifetime.

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